my heart goes out to all of you. and my deepest prayers. i cant even imagine how all of the mothers and fathers on this site posting their stories and heartache about their children must even feel. My boyfriend and best friend passed away of a drug overdose 3 years ago. he struggled with addiction for a very very long time and while he was not my child and im sure the pain does not even compare to that, it was the most painful thing that has ever happened to me. when i read beautiful boy i took some comfort in it because he talks about so many feelings that i have had. And so many feelings that i have or had that was just so hard to even admit to myself that i was feeling. Drugs took my boyfriends life way before they physically killed him. and while i still, 3 years later, constantly struggle with a wide array of emotions (anger, sadness and extreme guilt) i just try my very best to remember the good. and i try my best to tell myself that brad had a disease. a horrible disease that tortured him more then it did me. and i just hope and try to tell myself that now he is at peace. he is in a better place where he is free from that burden. or at least i hope so. i hope that those of you who have lost a child, brother, sister, family member, can have the strength in you to know that its not your fault. and that they are in a better place.